My Poetry:

A MASTER
A new babe is born
He will be a king
He will bring light and goodness
Tenderness to all things
Sparrows fly
Up above it all
A master looks down
A tear in his eye
No one will know
For that babe will die
When he is a man
He will not hide
Brave and kind
Until the end
He will give his life
That we might live
Our masters tears
We should have shed
For into lightness
Our Master led

A PERFECT MORNING

Misty morning sky
Surrounding me like a blanket
Holding me tight
Feeling like a corset
Pushing my breath from my body
Creating magic in my mind
Walking over the dewy grass
Feeling the blades crush beneath my feet
Smelling the scents of the country
Odors rush into my nostrils
Assaulting my brain
My eyes seeing the wonders of life
My ears hearing all the sounds
Feeling the damp air brush my skin
Perspiration beading on my forehead
Feeling alive
Being a part of creation

A TEAR
Burning as it leaves my eyes
Cold as its warmth passes by
As it runs down my face
It takes it place
Right on the end of my nose
Tickling like the petals of a rose
It’s just a ragged little tear
Fingers wipe it to a smear
Salty to the taste
Other tears have took chase
They run in rivers down my face
Putting my sadness in its place
Carrying my hurt, my pain
Clearing my head so I can see again
Its just a ragged little tear

A womans hands
Soft and gentle, a caress they place
Drying a river of tears
Running down a dirt stained face
Hard as steel
When shaking and pointing at a little boy
Having what he will
With love and care
Healthy and nutritious food
With steady hands she prepares
Steadfast and sure
Runny noses, coughs, and fevers
She doses out remedies to cure
These hands of hers often hurt
Daily chores to see to, sanitizing her home
Scrubbing away the grime and dirt
These hands wear the signs of use
Wrinkled, lined, stained
Show the years of abuse
Somehow they never seem too tired
To give love to her children or spouse
And somehow they wont until she expires
They teach, console, mend, and heal
Give support, love, encouragement and strength
And takes care of all that life deals
We often take her hands for granted
Assuming that they have no other purpose
In our mind these ideas are planted
Take the time to really look at her hands
Imagine what each line means, the things that put it there
Often they are more callused than any mans
Yet she does these things with love in her heart
To better our lives, giving us what we need
For when we, in life, make our start
I am blessed to have had her in my life
This lady with the tired old hands
My mother, my fathers wife

ANGEL OF MERCY
Babys breath
Wrapped in a wreath
Sat upon a head of golden curls
An angel she looked to me
White gauzy dress she wore
Shimmered in the breeze
Angel of mercy
Coming to look after me
Smile on her face
She moves towards me with ease
She shines with a light
That sets troubled hearts free
She takes my hand
Leads me to where I need to be
She told me I had let my pain
Blind me to what I could already see
She showed me the way to the end
Her compassion and hope to me she would lend
Courage to battle the storm and not bend
The will for life to go on again.

AS WE SEARCH FOR RAINBOWS
As we search for rainbows
We look far and near
Most often we miss them
For they are right before us here.
We take people for granted,
Assume they will always be there,
We dont take the time
To really love and care.
We say things that are hurtful,
Harsh and with fear
We hurt the ones that love us,
Without shedding a tear.
Broken hearted and lonely,
We blame the other,
We carry around the baggage,
Unable to go further.
Until we mend the mind,
Then the heart will follow,
I should really know this,
Pride is hard to swallow.
I am sorry is hard to say,
But it will pave the way,
It will lead you to happiness,
It will give you another day.
Days filled with peace,
Contentment and joy,
I cherish these days,
Like never before.
I hold on with both hands,
To lifes little gifts,
Looking for all the ands
And none of the Ifs.

BLOOD RED TEARS
Blood red tears
Falling in synchronized rivulets
Childish adults mourning a nation
That could have been
But never will be with the way
The establishment goes
( they tell us they are working for us
all for the good of the people
but mainly concerned with the salary
they are paid each month )
We are the hamsters
Riding on the wheel of life
Doing what is before us
Nothing more nothing less
Why vote
It doesnt count for anything
Doesnt change anything

I AM HUMAN
I am human
Treat me with grace
Dignity and style
Show me the meaning
Of friendship
That makes everything
Worthwhile
Give me a reason
To believe in you
A base to build trust on
Trust that will be true
Love me unconditionally
Completely including my fears
Show me the meaning
Of love
That bridges hearts
And dries tears
Give me a reason
To love you forever
A lifetime of contentment
Each day getting better

I REALLY MUST BE
I really must be
The stupidest person
To ever live
I fall in love
And with my soul
All of myself I give
Without one thought or care
It seems that I play with my heart
A deadly game of dare
I dare it to survive
With shadows of a soul
And wicked, bitter lies

I SEEN YOU WALK IN
I seen you walk in
I thought I would say hi
I never knew what would happen
I thought we would say good bye
Then we started talkn
And friends we became
Now everyday we chat
Things will never be the same.
Lots of laughs we have
Doing really silly things
Most of the time flying high
Floating around on wings.
I have had so much fun with you
Laughing till I hurt
So much fun I have had
I dont wanna go back to work.
Sit here all day to talkn
Hoping the housecleaning fairy will come
I want to play some more
I never get anything done.

I WILL GO ON
Inter-tangled
Lies and deceit
Lipstick stained glass
A smudge of foundation
On my white satin sheets
I know this isnt right
I havent been home
I go to the bathroom
Theres blond hair
In my comb
I feel my heart break
Its heavy like a stone
How could you break my trust
And do this
In my home
I kick off my shoes
And walk across the floor
I step on her earring
Ouch
Careless whore
The tiny drop of blood
Doesnt even compare
With the blood draining
Out of a heart
That is beyond repair
I sit on the window perch
Waiting for him to walk in
He drives up
As the tears well up in my eyes
And the fear begins
What do I say
To a man I loved all my life
That I found the evidence
And I am leaving him
No longer to be his wife
No I will not feel guilty
For he is the one that sinned
He took our lives together
Traded one night
For what could have been
He opens the door
And as he walks by
He catches the glint
Of hurt and anger
In my eyes
He knows I know
Without being told
He hangs his head
He knows he will never
Have me again to hold
We walk around in silence
As we split up our things
We take down the photos
And sadly smile
As we give back the rings
My heart hurts for the life
That we once had
But I know I will be better
And that healing will come
I wont always be sad
I will go on with my life
And do all the things
That I once wanted to do
Only I was bound
By a small golden ring
Experience life to the fullest
Live as I never been born
Breathe in like I never breathed
Exhale like I never exhaled
Grab the bull by the horns

I WILL NOT COMPETE
I know I am not your first
Nor do I believe I will be your last
She was there when I came
I dont believe she is now in your past
I think when you have a chance
You will talk to her for awhile
And when you face me afterwards
I will know what lies behind that smile
Dont think for a moment that I am stupid
For I have been in this position before
One warning I am giving you
I always walk out through the open door
The door you will leave open
With deception that you create
By continuing with her
Unfulfilled demons you must sate
If I am not enough woman for you now
I know I then will never be
And rather be less than needed
I will set you free
For your love I will not compete
If its not given entirely and without strings
Completely and without expectations
Then with you I will not exchange rings
I dont play second fiddle
To a woman, already wed
I dont need the added stress
To the mountains that seem to lie in my head
I give you my love unconditionally
With trust that I shouldnt have given so free
It was my heart that did
A choice not left up to me

IF I HAD
If I had
A penny
For every thought
That I thought about you
My piggy bank would burst
If I had
A rose
For every second
That I missed you
My garden would be full
If I had
A rainbow
For every moment
That we shared
My sky would never be gray
If I had
A song
For every hour
That we made love
My life would be complete

IN THE SAND
Grains of sand
Timeless no doubt
Stretching for miles
White caps rolling
Meeting the shores
Gentles breezes
Blowing salty smells
Kites flying high
Bright and colorful
Boats in the sea
Sails flying high
Seagulls soaring
High above it all
Children building
Sand castles
Parents lying
In the sand
Loosing themselves
From a week of worry
Single adults
Searching
For that someone
Maybe for a summer fling
Maybe for longer
Everyone
Everything
A place in life
A quiet spot

IN THE STILL OF THE NIGHT
In the still of night
And the fears are in sight
I fight that fearlfull fight
I fight it with all my might
I know that my end is near
Will I be able to face it without fear
Will the pain I feel stop to sear
Not for the ones I hold dear
This body of mine is old
Worn and left so cold
By the pain that took it to hold
Feeling my cards starting to fold
Have I said all I needed to say
I might not have another day
Have I shown in every way
I hope I have I pray
Have I done all I should do
To make this easier for you
Have I said in every way
How much I love you today.

INSANITY AND MADNESS
Insanity and madness
The righteous goes on
Taking bits and pieces
Until the daylight is gone
Screams echoing from the soul
Gone is the day of peace
Nightmares colliding with reality
Putting us all at ease
Balance between the two
Normality at its best
Screeching from the streets
Putting us all to a test
Rising above the city
We breathe it in like a smell
Stalking our very existence
When it will claim us no one can tell
Insanity and madness
The righteous goes on

NO CHILDREN
As I walked by the park the other day
I stopped there to watch them play
I felt my heart tighten and swell
I retreated into my shell
As I watched those faces all aglow
I felt a feeling I thought I would never know
I felt as if they were all my children too
Not just the children of all of you
I can not have any kids of my own
My house will never be a home
But my heart can experience what you feel
And I know what I felt was real
As I walked away from the park that day
Heart heavy with sadness I heard a little voice say
Hey lady, will you push me in this swing?
Ah, my dear child, it was the simplest thing.
I felt as if I was walking on air that day
As with the little children I played.
Even though there will be no children of my own,
My house will in fact be a home.
Adoption you see, that is what I will do,
Then I will be a mom just like you.
I dont have to give birth to feel like its my child
Any child at all, they are all worthwhile.

NO CURE
Slam the poison in your veins
One way trip on a runaway train
She cant cure you from your pain
Leave you crying in the rain
She makes you feel like your a man
Turns you on and takes your hand
Leads you down into the promised land
Leave you feeling like a grain of sand
Icy bitterness races through your soul
Leaving you lonely and ashamed
Not a penny to your name
Scarring your body, leaving it maimed
Theres no cure
No way to hear your pleas
Like a ghost disappearing
Your mistress of insanity flees

OF LOVE AND LIES
You wanted a world without me
You asked me to leave
You wanted your space, to be free
You wanted solidarity
You wanted payment of bills
You wanted monies for the children
You wanted single life frills
You never expected the hardships and hills
You have no money to eat you say
You have no money to buy the things you need
Because you had to have it your way
And for me its brighter days
I have never had it so good
Freedom to be myself

OLD BOOK
Old dusty book
Yellowed with age
Reminds me of my skin
Wrinkled with age
I skim over the pages
See the stories written there
My scars tells secrets
Truths, lies, heartaches and despair
Chapter by chapter
Like the years of my life
Born into a world
Filled with strife
The fragile leaves of innocence
Crushed on the cold, cold ground
The pains of adolescence cuts like a knife
Confusion at the world around me
Feeling like a solitary soldier
In a war, a battle for life
Adulthood came more gently
Whispered around me like a summer’s breeze
Jobs, marriage, children and home life
A pleasure, a comfort it brought
Yet it retained the power to bring me to my knees
Some times it was sadness and heartache
But most it was joys, laughter and a sense of knowing
This is where I was supposed to be
Now I sit here in my old age
Rocking on my porch, considering my little diary book
That lays here before me
Telling my story
Each hiding place, each corner, each nook
It might just be a book for you to read
But for me it is so much more
Its me laid open for you all to look

ONLINE WHORES
Little sisters
With no lives of your own
You play online all day
Looking for another home.
Is your life so bad?
So depressing and boring?
You would sell yourself short
Resort to online whoring?
Be careful little sisters
For your souls you could loose
Dont blame it on him
You were the one to choose.
Reality beckons
Desperation knocks on your door
Under the gun, under pressure
My little sisters, the online whores

OUT IN THE OPEN
Once we were beautiful lovers
There was no one else in our lives
We were two minds
That came together
And we thought it
Would last forever
But lately something is different
Because your hiding out in the open
I see you there but your not around
Its like your in your own little world
I talk to you but you cant hear a sound

PAPER HEARTS
Scraps of construction paper
Strewed everywhere
All sorts of shapes and colors
I have been making
Paper hearts
Why you wonder
Then ask
“Paper hearts dont bleed
When they are crushed
Paper hearts can be replaced
They dont cost that much
Paper hearts dont feel pain
When they are broken and torn
Paper hearts can be replaced
When they are shabby and worn”
So I made some paper hearts
And these I will give instead
Of giving my heart
Mine is too fragile
Easily broken into

PAYBACK LADIES
There are these two women that I hate
One is FLA and the other T.B.
They run around all day
Gossiping like busy bees
Taking pride in hurting other people
Hitting them between the knees
Then S.C. shows up on the scene
Oh God they now do it in threes
They bad mouth some very precious women
I know, one of those was me
Their day will come to be hurt
This I truly do believe
Not words from my mouth
I am always the one that gets it you see
But what you do in life
Is what you will receive
Watch where you step ladies
Yes, you, FLA, S.C. and T.B.

PRECIOUS MOMENTS
A few precious moments
Stolen in time
Rubbing out the bitterness
As sugar to a lime
Taking away the anger
Hurt and the pain
Washing it away
Like a gentle rain
Moments I share with you
My heart tightens and swells
Erasing the memory and pain
Of living hell
It feels so good
To be with you
Knowing that you care
Letting you know I care too
Holding out for something
We can’t explain
Making the most of moments
Before they are gone again
Reaching out for one another
Putting our arms around
With these thin ties
For now we are bound
But every moment we spend
Brings us closer in heart
And brings the fear of hurt
If we should ever part

PRECIOUS SON
Precious child
Lying in the grass
Looking toward the sky
Eyes bright with life
I am amazed
You are my child
How did I get so lucky?
Innocent and tender
A miracle on earth
I lean over
To touch your cheek
You look towards me
I have never felt so loved
Or needed
Nor have I ever loved
So much
Or needed
So much
My heart fills
With pride
With peace
With contentment
With all the things
That are wonderful and good
I could spend a lifetime
Sharing a sunny spring day
With you
My precious son.

PRINCE OF DARKNESS
Shooting stars
Maze of galaxies
Pushing the limits
Of time and constraint
Rocketing through space
With the speed of light
Hollowing the darkness
Black goo oozes
Down a sci fi hill
Gales blowing
Through the valleys
And mountians
A birth taking place
Lightening flashes
Thunder claps
A prince of darkness
Rushes about
Sowing his evil
On the wicked souls
Playing the jester
Rushing about for his own end
Taking the sinister hearts
In a sack on his waist
Later to dine
With the deacons
Of his palace
His peons
His little men
The ones that dont know
The next heart
Could be theirs

REVERBERATING LIFE
Baby nestled
At his mothers breast
Tiny hands clenched
To his cheek
Mouth busily sucking
Taking the food
That she gives
Breath comes in tiny burst
A grunt or a groan
Sounds of pleasure he makes
Toothless gums beat
A pattern
On her nipple
Tiny legs move
In contentment
Eyes shine with happiness
He smells so new
His skin like velvet
To the touch
His hair
Finer than precious silk
Feel his heart pounding
Reverberating life

RUN AND HIDE
Run faster little girl
Hide yourself away
From the rest of the world
Put that shell on
Retract inside
Run little girl
Run and hide
Pull the emotional blanket
High to your chin
Block your feelings
Let no one in
Walls of steel
Around your heart
World closing in
Pulling you apart
Feel the claw of reality
Sitting in to stay
Waiting for darkness
To turn to day
So run little girl
Run and hide
No matter where you run
I will be at your side
For I can never leave
I am part of you
I am your conscious
I keep you true
Face me little girl
See what only you can see
Deep inside of you
What scares you and me
Face the darkness
Hold on to my hand
Together we are strong
I will do what I can

RUNNING FOR LIFE
Wild horses
Stampeding across the plains
Muscles rippling with each stride
Sweat and froth dripping
Nostrils flaring
Eyes open wide
Running for life
Hooves beating out a rhythm
As they fly
Over the earth
They are all a blur
Colors merging
Clouds of dust
Swirl in the summer sky
I think to myself
What if one of those horses
Was I

SEA OF REGRET
A cup of coffee
And a cigerette
I sit here and swim
In a sea of regret
Lying to myself
Saying it wasnt that bad
The good times were
The best I ever had
I am needing them now
Like I never did then

SECRETS
Hidden shadows
Hallows in my mind
Secret passages
A maze I find
Dark moods
Secret untruths
Pyramids of lies
Zero percent proof

SENSES
Scent of a woman
Ripe and musty
Drives a man insane
Taste of a woman
Sweet yet tart
Leaves him coming back again
Feel of a woman
Soft as silk
Wrecks havoc on his brain
Sounds of a woman
Tender and wild
He wants her to scream his name
Sight of a woman
Sensual and on fire
Brings his to his knees again

SHADOWS OF NIGHT
Leaves crackled
Trodden upon
By those heavy of foot
Trees loom
Out of the moonlight
Arms stretching out to embrace
Night creatures
Sing a lullaby
A gap in silence it creates
Pale moon
Hangs in the darken skies
Illuminates the secrets of the night
For all that is known
The night holds so much more
The unseen, unheard, unknown
It watches
Hears
Shares
A common space

SHARING YOUR MOMENT
My heart cries out for you
Wanting you near
Needing to hear your voice
Sharing your fears
I know you must be hurting
I see it on your face
The world sitting on your shoulders
Life doesnt slow its pace
Worries on your mind
Pressing into your thoughts
Visible on your face
There all is caught
Although you never say
How you really feel
It shows itself
And I know its real
There is a pain in your heart
Burning inside you
Taking its toll
Breaking you into
Knowing there isnt anything
That I can say or do
The final decision
To be made by you
I wait on you patiently
Never hovering but always here
I know you may need me
To lend you an ear
Silently waiting for you
Hoping that I hear
When you call for me
That your need becomes clear
Sharing with you your moments
All your triumphs and tears
You are the one thing in life
That I hold so dear
More than life itself
More than you could know
Loving you so completely
Love continues to grow

SHE NEEDS
She needs a lover
She needs a touch
She needs kindness
She knows how much
She needs sanity
She needs trust
She needs to go on with life
She knows she must
She needs a helping hand
She needs a friend
She needs to find forgiveness
She knows this pain must end
She needs to live
She needs to cry
She needs to let go
She knows it has to die
She needs to up her head up
She needs to hold it high
She needs to smile to herself
She knows she needs to fly

SILENTLY LAUGHING
All of the useless men
In the world
Yet
Us women love them still
They talk a line
Of shit
But
We believe them still
They sleep with a woman
Like she is
A trophy
I know
I have been
A trophy
A dozen times
Knowing even
As they slip into me
That I am
Just a piece of meat
A memory maybe
That will clutter
Some space in their mind
Maybe they will
Share me
The experience
With some friend
Laughing
At the whore
Used
Left after they were spent
I have to laugh
To myself
At all the sweet things
They say
I am
Knowing
They are hoping
To get laid
Once in awhile
I will
Let them
Silently laughing
At them

SINKING TIDES
To dream of a river
Thoughts floating down
Riding the rapids
Tides running rampant
Swirls in liquid form
Drowning in angry crashes
Swim the river of regret
Slowly rolling into the banks
Loosing energy
Until we are spent

SOUL TEARS
The pain is so intense
Feel the heart shatter
The ache is immense
My soul is in tatters
Tears flow like a river stream
Incredible sadness that suffocates
No please no the mind screams
Fear you can not escape
Mind racing with possible solutions
To right the wrongs we done
When we jumped to conclusions
Sometimes we find none

SPEAKS TO ME
That man
The one with the sexy voice
He teases me
Never know where I am going
He really leaves me
With no choice
Doesn’t matter
What he says
My passions grow
He brings me to peaks
Just by speaking softly
To me

SPENDING ETERNITY
Soul mate of mine
You sit my heart to spin
Twisting and turning with emotions
I never thought I would feel again
Brought my soul alive
You have lifted up my heart
Once battered and bruised
Completely torn apart
I sit in the light
Bathing in the glow
The light of your love
Over me it flows
Taking my mind
To higher places
Thoughts of happiness
Through my mind races
Spending eternity
Caught up in our time
Sharing your life
You sharing mine

STARDUST
Living, breathing, being
Have you ever wondered if it was real
Are we all really here?
Is this some sick interplanetary joke?
Like the whisps of smoke trailing from a comet
Intertangled garbage tailing a master
Racing thru space and time
Bursting with energy
When we collide
Like angry rocks
Hurling thru space
Some of us comets
Some of us asteroids
Some of us stars
Some of us simply stardust

STATE OF CONFUSION
An afternoon of cuddles
Tender hugs and smiles
Things that I have missed
And missed for awhile
They were given freely
And gave from the heart
Now I sit here alone
And the teardrops start
Never have I felt so alone
Or torn into
I dont know which direction to go
Or just what to do
As I sit here racking my brain
Trying to put the pieces in place
My cheeks, wet with tears
Salty to the taste
I go lie in my bed
And I close my eyes
Only one question to pnder
Will it be hello or goodbye
The answer I dont know yet
Maybe I never will
Perhaps in the future
After my heart starts to heal

STORMS OF SECRETS
Secret
Shhhhhh
I have a secret
Just what I cant tell
Paralyzing secrets
Yes more than one
Most of the time forgotten
Until some strange thing happens
Then they come screaming
From out of the darkness
As a lighting bolt on a stormy night
Howling like the wind
Wanting to be let back in again
Pounding in my brain
Like rain on a tin roof
Gradually subsiding
As the storm blows again
Always waiting
Patiently
To strike another day

SUBCONSCIOUS
Paranoia will destroy you
When your sitting alone in your room
Night mares terrorize
The blindness of your mind
When the darkness looms
Monsters of untold greatness
Shackled to your walls
Mirrors of yourself
Or of your hatred
Demons dance
In your head
Wanting once more
To be fed
Keeping alive
The imagination
Starving off
Boredom
Letting your soul
Reach out
Playing with fire
No chemicals
Will take you higher
Free your mind
Naturally
See what we are capable of
When we only think
Express yourself
Openly
Dont be ashamed
At the things that you think
Tell about the woman
That dances in your dreams
Does she tell you
To do these things
Subconscious
A powerful thing
Materializes
When we least think

THE FOREST
Rolling thunder
Lightening strikes
Running through a meadow
Under a midnight sky
Rain pouring down
Like anger boiling
A pale withered moon
Hanging sadly in the sky
Shining very little light
To illuminate my path
I dont know what
I am running from
Only that I have to get away
Terror builds inside of me
Panic starts to set in
I see the forest
Where I can hide
But it seems
I can never
Get there

THE MASTER
Flick of a whip
The slave cries out
Tender skin splits
Red angry welts
The master grunts
With physical exertion
As he brings the leather
Down against silk
Over and over again
She loves her master
Would do anything
That he liked
Sell her soul
To please him
She would give her life
Without a doubt

THE TIDE GOES
The tide goes out
Taking the sands out to sea
I stand here wishing
It would take the memories you left me
The water of the ocean
Salty as my tears
I wish the murky waters
Could hide as well my fears
Life without you
No more to hear the tinkling of your laugh
Only the echos off my walls
And the clinking of shattering glass
I visit our life we had
Where it lives in my mind
I miss the happiness we shared
Wish we could have left the hurt behind
Now we must take off
On journeys of our own
Each of us with a new place
To another love when the seeds are sown

THE VOWS I MAKE
Hedges and fences
Walls that scale so high
Keeps in my feelings in
And tears from my eyes
They keep you out
So you dont have a chance to hurt
My fragile soul, lined with scars
Buried beneath the dust and dirt
Scared to give myself to you completely
Hard lessons I have learned in the past
Scared that if I love you too much
That your love wont last
Remember that my fence has a gate
It has opened to let you in
And it can open to let you out
Heartache to set in where happiness once had been
You hold the key to my soul
Its up to you what you do
Only you can make the choices
My heart begs that you be true
Love me forever
With tenderness and grace
Passion and integrity
Dont set me in second place
Hold me close
As I will do for you
Love you forever
Only to you to be true
With honor and honesty
These are vows that I make
They are also vows
That I hope you take
Equality and earnestness
It takes a lot of time to keep it together
To have a love thats pure
One that will last forever

TO HEAR HIM
His voice
I am in love with his voice
Warm and tender
Rich with laughter
Soothing my soul
Ripples over my being
I could listen to him all night
Sometimes I do
Laying in the darkness
On the phone
Listening
Aching
Needing
To hear him
Talk to me

TOUCH
Touch my hand
Touch my face
Fingers sliding
A pattern to trace
Touch my mind
Touch my soul
Starting a fire
Warmth from the cold
Touch my fears
Touch my pains
Clearing away
Trickling tear stains

SAY GOODBYE
When laughter becomes tears
And happiness is now fears
Contentment is no longer there
Silence in an empty stare
Anger reflecting in the eyes
Wishing for goodbyes
Cold steel around my heart
Cicles of ice start
Rage burns my soul
A touch of pisstivity makes me whole
Terrors where dreams once lay
Solitude sits in to stay
Emptiness inside me
Screaming to be free
Leave alone the demons inside
Let them live where they hide
Fighting of wars within
Feeling the urge of evil sins
I put them back again
Leaving them when I can
I will hold these until it’s time
Then I will leave these fears that are mine
Leave them all behind
Say goodbye

UNTITLED
We search and search
Often to despair
For something to believe in
For something that we can care
Happiness often alludes us
Right until the bitter end
Because we are looking for something external
That will our broken hearts mend
We never search inside our souls
For the things we need
Our sprits go on
Raw, life blood to bleed

VIOLENT MINDS
Insanity beckons
From a perch high up
Calling to us all
Drink from its cup
Twisted souls
Dark humanity
Screaming demons
Of our vanity
Sickening stories
No man can tell
Of the living horrors
In this world of hell
Violent minds
Raging from abuse
Always giving
Some excuse
Until one day
The fight is gone
Then we know
Its time to carry on
Brighter paths
We do see
When we are floating
Towards reality

WHAT WOMEN THINK OF
What do women think of
When they are sitting alone
Do you men think we think of you
And cant wait for you to come home
HA! Not always
My fine gents
Sit right down there
And I will give you a hint
We think of children
Shopping and clothes
We think of hairdos
And how big is our nose
We think of going on a diet
Our hips are too wide
Our tummy seem to grow
And our dress cant hide
We think of sexy men
That will sweep us off our feet
Take us to heights we never knew
And that is no small feat
We think of bubble baths
Laying in the tub for so long
Until our skin shrivels up
And the bubbles are long gone
We think of sipping champagne
And blowing the bubbles thru our noses
We think of candlelight and romance
Not necessarily roses
So my fine gents
These are some of the things we think
Sometimes we do miss you
And miss you more than our shrinks

WHEN THE ROADS MEET
Sometimes when we are walking
Down the roads of life
We dont feel like talking
To our husband or our wives.
Sometimes we just need a friend
That special someone that helps us
When it seems its all at a end,
Even though its not a must
You do just because.
We love those special ones,
They make us smile.
And when the battles are won,
And we have walked that long while,
Let me tell you that I love you,
More than you will know,
Thank you for helping me
Especially when I was low.
Thank you for understanding me,
For letting me just be,
I will appreciate you forever,
And I will always be,
Right here for you,
As you have always been for me.

WHERE DID IT GO?
Feeling like I was at the end of my rope,
You came around and gave me some hope,
You blew some air under my wings,
Told me to take some time for things.
You showed me how to fly,
Together we soared so high,
Never really touching the ground,
Letting the world spin all around.
Thinking that we could never be touched,
What others thought didnt matter too much,
Lost in one another for so long,
We thought we would never go wrong.
What happened to us, where did it go?
It happened over time, went really slow,
Taking all of the positive feelings,
Leaving scars that need healing.
We say things that wound each other,
Leaving the pain to go even futher,
Scabbing over on my heart,
I feel like I am coming apart.
Wanting so much to feel the contentment,
But all I feel lately is the resentment,
Wanting to forgive and forget,
I dont want to feel this all this regret.
Needing to say what I feel,
Wanting you to know what I am saying is real,
Aching for you to touch me,
Why cant you hear my plea?
I understand if you need some time,
But I have given you all of mine,
I need to know if you love me,
Or do you really want to be free?

WHISPERS IN THE NIGHT
Shadows dancing in my heart
Secret desires roaming my mind
Pouring into my soul
Wanting sexual healing
Spilling out from your body
Filling me until overflowing
Needing you in my arms
Aching to have you near
Feeling you ease into my warmth
Something inside of me goes
Over the edge and back again
Quivering deep inside
Soaking up your love
Making the moon and stars
Brighter than we could have known
Explosions going off in our minds
Colours we have never seen
Our bodies meeting in rhythm
Just like our spirit
Pulling my hips into you
A hunger that seems endless
Nipping at skin
Tasting the raw emotions
Majesty at its point
Taking the greatest test
Taking the pain
Silently from me
Ripples of sweat run in beads
Falling like rain sweet and fast
Skin raging with fire
Never knew it would go higher
Tightening when you swell inside
Knowing that the time is near
When we fall from this earth
In a moment that will shatter
Leaving us here before
The moment of truth
Testing our bonds
Bursting at our restraints
How fast will we go
How slow can we go
How fast can we fly
How slow can we soar
Reaching for the sky
I am totally lost
Tied in your chains
Chains of love
Bonds of steel

YOUNG MAN IN BLUE
What are you looking for
Young man dressed in blue
God knows an almost perfect woman
Stands right in front of you
No, granted, she doesnt have firm breast
But under them she has a heart of gold
Yes, her hips are a little wide
But she gave birth to your fold.
Maybe her hair is a little frazzled
Taking care of you she had no time
So you say she has let herself go
Look at yourself then whine
So she isnt perfect, no model looks or thin
But shes had your back for years
She paid the price for you
With blood, sweat and tears
So tell me young man in blue
What are you out here looking for
You better run home young man
Before she closes that door.

YOUR CHILDREN
Your children
Recruiting for war
Indignant cries ring out
Screaming we will take no MORE
Us, the children of democracy
We have came to know as a nation
The lies will never end
They started with the beginning of creation
Religion, politics, and men
For at first, was our way of life
A woman not allowed a spoken thought
Miserable creatures to live a life of strife
The children were higher in status
Than the owners of the hands
Who dried the tears and fed the mouths
And who stood silently by her man
Came then the shedding of innocence
Separation of the girls and boys
Girls becoming women
The boys staying “one of the boys”
Young ladies and fine gents
A new generation to raise
Falling out of grace
Those young ladies rose to praise
Threw away their bras
Hidden thoughts now to voice
A generation of women changed a world
And gave women a choice